maybe it was wrong of me to be doing this right from the start.

work will never be finished. but i have deadlines to meet. and lots of them.
i'm becoming forgetful because there were too much to remember.
i tried my best to give everything i have.
but time is forever running, and work is taking up so much of it, that i have to squeeze in every minute of my free time to meet up with love ones.

in the past, i kept promises.
now, i don't have the guts to give any.
i was accused of being self-centered, too blunt, and too straight-forward.

guess i dont really have to take all these sarcastic and rude remarks at work.
pls tell it to my face if you are unhappy.
but before that, pls ask yourself if you have misunderstood anything.
if i can take on whatever i have on hand and be very happy about what i'm doing now, i wouldn't have broke down at work last week.
mom wouldn't have to boil eggs to reduce my swollen eyes for every morning of that week.

it's mom, who lets me cry on our way home from work that day. i have nobody else to understand me now but her. thank you for caring about the triathlon too. it means alot to me.





and a deepest sorry to my friends. i seem to have forgotten you. but really, i havent.