i'm gonna have to admit it now. just in case i havent said it...

this is not for me. really. i paid to clear my mind off this impossible dream.
this was not what i wanted to learn in the first place.
they got it all wrong for me.
i made it all wrong for myself.
i just wanted to draw.
with just that intention, purely. aye.
which is why, i dread doing the assignments which are totally off my genre of art.

dad thinks i'm no longer an art person after i said this.
so you can't really draw, can you.

no. i can't... believe that i can't draw anymore.
i just found out that i have been pointing my arrow in the wrong direction.



nevermind girl, keep running the race. you're losing today. but it won't be for long.