i realised i haven't been contented with what i have. all the good things and people around me. all the love i have yet to but was almost able to receive. and all the love i've pushed away. because everything was not good enough for me. i see everyone who was nice to me as people with bad intentions. just afraid that the kindness will not last long. and i will hurt myself when all the kindness was taken away by the very person who gave it to me.

my expectations weren't simple. it makes my mind complicated.
and i never felt contented. the truth to simplicity, is feeling contented just by getting enough.
it is to feel blessed just having what i have now. to say the truth, i am fortunate.
i have almost all the tools to happiness.
Family,
friends,
lovable cousins,
kind acquaintances... all these are the things i missed out when counting my blessings.
i am fortunate to come to this point where i have all the nice people in my life. it's difficult to live among people with all sorts of attitudes and temper.
but as the saying goes "your friend is the only person who have seen all of you and still like you", it's about accepting people for who they are.
there are people who accepted me for who i am.


truly, i'm blessed.