i gained 1 kg!!!
congratulations????
(is there even a need to announce this? yep. becos some bloody bastards still think i'm starving myself on purpose.)
but it's just 1 kg of fats from the chocolates and potato chipps la
and not to forget the breakfast-s i've been having after dinner.


(tonight,
dinner is arriving at 1130pm.
so i had breakfast first.)

next week's gonna be a busy week,
beginning of the month,
so all reports must be in.
got to prepare for OT,
but it's ok, i have chauffeurs to send me home every night.
and it's gonna be mercedez too,
SBS.

i'm looking forward to next week!!
i'm gonna get my pay!
i'm gonna replenish all the stuffs that are finishing,
milk, yogurt, fruits, biscuits, sweets, face wash, cream... (never ending list of stuffs)


and not to forget,
to return all the money i owe too.
haiz!


tech recognition night's coming too.
i'm going! :)
dad say i'm thick-skinned, cos i'm just a temp,
who cares...
can't help being curious on how those pple look like
and its karaoke night, my boss gonna sing!!!
guess i'm better off back in the HR dept given my kpo nature... hah.


missed my friends.
i wonder how's everyone...





okay i know we just met up not long ago.

Truely man is the king of beasts, for his brutality exceeds theirs. We live by the death of others: we are burial places! I have from an early age adjured the use of meat, and the time will come when men such as I will look on the murder of animals as they now look on the murder of men.
- Leonardo Da Vinci



You put a baby in a crib with an apple and a rabbit. If it eats the rabbit and plays with the apple, I'll buy you a new car.
- Harvey Diamond



Heart attacks... God's revenge for eating his little animal friends.
- Anonymous

i lay in the quiet,
but that distant sound seems so loud and clear to me.
my pulse is rising, my hands trembling.
but being blinded,
i sense nothing but darkness around me.




i'm so tired (mentally).
i am happy. i really am happy at work.
but when i'm back home, sitting in this room,
facing the same walls,
reminding myself of everything again,
i wished i could just leave.
leave everything i have now,
and start something new.

spent two of my fridays with my parents.
rare. very rare.

want to congratulate dad.
for finally being able to go back to doing something he has always been passionate about.
i must be the only one at home who is presently agreeing fully to his decision.
but honestly, it's not our choice to choose for him.
i like to step in his shoes and feel how he's feeling when he tells me his stories.
and i can seriously feel how happy and relieved he was.

the environment he's in currently isn't good for his health.
long hours everyday in that kind of humid environment.
everytime i see him, he's sweating like hell.
and his actions always the same. wiping his face with the towel around his neck.
but still greets me happily, despite how tired he was, when i'm there.
over the years here, he's been falling ill more frequently than anyone of us.
and he's applying medication all the time as his skin cracks too often.
it's so frequent that sometimes i remember seeing him do it even though he didn't.
and not to mention those swollen ankles from the long hours of standing.
moreover, two difficult customers are harder to handle than twenty animals.


dad...

why do you have to work so hard for us?

i'm so glad you are my dad.





"Tough times never lasts. But tough people do."

We only have One Mom, One Mommy, One Mother
in this World, One life. Don't wait for the Tomorrows
to tell Mom, you love her.
- Author Unknown

Some mothers are kissing mothers and some are
scolding mothers, but it is love just the same, and
most mothers kiss and scold together.
~Pearl S. Buck

The moment a child is born, the mother is also born.
She never existed before. The woman existed, but the
mother, never. A mother is something absolutely new.
~Rajneesh

"The most important thing a father can do for his children
is to love their mother."
-- Theodore Hesburgh





This is what my manager showed me on his son's blog.
Every child (be it big ones, small ones, or old ones) loves their mom.

when she's too independent, too strong...
nobody really cares for her on the outside.

she's sick, yet no one showed her concern or tell her to see a doctor.
we all know she can take care of herself.
she knows what to do.

so i said to her today,
"have you taken your medicine?"
and she replied,
"yes, taken."

can't bring myself to say anything more.

Happy mother's day.

"I always remind myself to be myself always. One cannot live a life by putting on a mask and be what others expect of us simply because of their perception of who we are. We live for ourselves, not others. It is tiring to put up an appearance and this cannot be sustained. Imitating other’s lifestyle will not move us ahead in the social arena. If you do not appreciate the taste of wine, do not pretend you do. It is all right to stick to your beer or fruit punch. The harder you try to be like others, the more you are going to lose your true self. The end result is misery. Everyone in this world is unique because there can be only one you in this world. Being you is the most unique thing a person can be."

- Mr Kenny Yap, Executive Chairman and Managing Director
Qian Hu Corporation Ltd

工作时，突然想起了小时候那好几次被冤枉的时候。

也不知道是怎么想起的，回忆就突然出现在我眼前。

也不是放不下。

感觉好像是没完全把讨厌的回忆洗去似的。

想想也对，漂亮的回忆固然会让人留下深刻的印象，

但不好的记忆已在身上刻下伤口，怎能那么容易丢开呢?

哈。。。到底怎么搞的。。。不是说好不写伤心事了吗。。。
还是忍不住写了。。。哈。。哈。。

只是最近感觉怪怪的。。。

总想不起自己心里爱着的东西，恶梦也总做个不停。

不想记起的事，最远或许也只能抛到脑后，怎么都还是抛不出脑外。

可是真心喜欢的回忆竟然可以这样轻易的把它给丢失。

想不起还是拼命的想。

听歌，画画，做白日梦。。。

方法都用尽了。

想起了一丝的记忆，但很快的又断了。

就一直这样断了再结，结了又断。

最后的那记忆被我自己弄的都模糊了。。。

现在的我宁可抓住这模糊的记忆，

也舍不得在这时候放手去面对眼前正在发生的真实。

我不想看到事实。

不想面对命运。

不想告诉自己那对我这么重要的记忆

已被自己弄得消失的无影无踪。




好久没写文章了!!! 哈!
华文还不错吧?

no matter how much u want to try to remember something u miss so much,
there're always times where u realise u cant.

liar.