We all know the habit of cats of hesitating in an open doorway. Which of us has not said to a cat,'Well, come in if you want to'? There are men who, in moments when a decision is called for, hover uncertainty like a cat, at the risk of being crushed by the closing of the door. These cautious spirits may run greater risks than those who are more daring.
- Author Victor Hugo, Les Miserables (book8, chapter IV)
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Thursday, March 29, 2007
A quote by Victor Hugo
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
met up with the two of them today. (finally, after maybe... 2 mths.) sure missed them both, haha! too bad gigi is in taiwan, couldnt come meet up with us.
though its a peaceful meeting, nth too extraordinary, i really enjoy being around them, haha!
anyway, nice specs baby!=D
update: siyuan corrected me that we last met less than a month ago. =))
Monday, March 26, 2007
Last night, my mom flare up at me. Especially when the weighing machine shows that i'm 5kg lesser. Weighed myself at Gigi's place on 2nd march, and found out that i lost 2kg. In 3 weeks, i lost another 3kg...she says losing 3kg in 3 weeks is scary. I know...even if it doesn't scares her, it sure scares me.
WAIT. Dont think i'm happy about it. I've never been on a diet or skipped any meal to lose weigh. These measures never work, i merely skip a few ropes when i feel like it.
Anyway, losing weigh wasn't my goal in the first place. I've had several bets made with a cousin of mine, to see who will reach the 50kg mark 1st. Hah! Every now and then, when we talk we've been comparing and i was actually losing at 49kg. She always wins by a few decimal numbers. Haha! Normally, i skipped and drink lots of milk and calcium rich drinks to make my muscles and bones heavier. I managed to do it and force myself up to 49kg but for a year my weigh has been constant at that. It never goes up.
So it wasn't intentional. Ever since my last fever, which was some 2 months ago, i've been having diahorrea on and off. And my stomach pains wouldnt recover. Some are really serious and it restricts my intake of food. If i eat alot, i'll go running to the washroom several times in a day. And if i dont eat, the same thing happens, but on lesser frequency.
I couldn't even skip because of these pains. Even till now, my appetite becomes smaller. Even though i have cravings, the moment i eat alil' more, i actually feel like vomiting. Take for example the tou huay i had last sat. Having eaten only half a bowl, i have to stop myself because the feeling was unbearable. Still, i forced myself to finish 3/4 of it, but by then i'm alrdy on the verge of vomiting. I used to take supper often. And its only 1130pm that time - 3hrs from my last meal.
What's happening to my body, i don't know. But there's one thing i'm sure of, that is, my weigh will come piling back in no time. =)
I don't know how to explain myself cos mom has been blaming me for not taking meat, or having the right meals at the right time of the day. There are some things you know people will never understand. And i'm sick and tired of giving explainations to stubborn people who won't listen.
I know dad will help me even if she doesn't.
**Now, both of them aren't listening. They are both thinking that i'm starving myself on purpose. I thought he'll believe me. I never expect it. But, maybe dad never changed after all. Since we were young, we weren't allowed to be sick. Any illness will guarantee you a scolding. I can't reason for them, because this is just too unreasonable.
WAIT. Dont think i'm happy about it. I've never been on a diet or skipped any meal to lose weigh. These measures never work, i merely skip a few ropes when i feel like it.
Anyway, losing weigh wasn't my goal in the first place. I've had several bets made with a cousin of mine, to see who will reach the 50kg mark 1st. Hah! Every now and then, when we talk we've been comparing and i was actually losing at 49kg. She always wins by a few decimal numbers. Haha! Normally, i skipped and drink lots of milk and calcium rich drinks to make my muscles and bones heavier. I managed to do it and force myself up to 49kg but for a year my weigh has been constant at that. It never goes up.
So it wasn't intentional. Ever since my last fever, which was some 2 months ago, i've been having diahorrea on and off. And my stomach pains wouldnt recover. Some are really serious and it restricts my intake of food. If i eat alot, i'll go running to the washroom several times in a day. And if i dont eat, the same thing happens, but on lesser frequency.
I couldn't even skip because of these pains. Even till now, my appetite becomes smaller. Even though i have cravings, the moment i eat alil' more, i actually feel like vomiting. Take for example the tou huay i had last sat. Having eaten only half a bowl, i have to stop myself because the feeling was unbearable. Still, i forced myself to finish 3/4 of it, but by then i'm alrdy on the verge of vomiting. I used to take supper often. And its only 1130pm that time - 3hrs from my last meal.
What's happening to my body, i don't know. But there's one thing i'm sure of, that is, my weigh will come piling back in no time. =)
I don't know how to explain myself cos mom has been blaming me for not taking meat, or having the right meals at the right time of the day. There are some things you know people will never understand. And i'm sick and tired of giving explainations to stubborn people who won't listen.
I know dad will help me even if she doesn't.
**Now, both of them aren't listening. They are both thinking that i'm starving myself on purpose. I thought he'll believe me. I never expect it. But, maybe dad never changed after all. Since we were young, we weren't allowed to be sick. Any illness will guarantee you a scolding. I can't reason for them, because this is just too unreasonable.
Sunday, March 25, 2007
死了, 心要去哪里呢
Have been relaxin at home till now.
What i normally do is to watch tv, go out for breakfast in the mornings with dad, drawing, and looking forward to the release of every week's Bleach manga.
What i normally do is to watch tv, go out for breakfast in the mornings with dad, drawing, and looking forward to the release of every week's Bleach manga.
Normally, i don't really put my heart into stuffs like that, tv and all... they aren't important.
I practically do all these things just to pass my time.
Looking forward to the release of new manga chapters is just an excuse to look forward to the new week, better than having nothing to wait for.
But, last week's chapter was so tragic, it nearly made me cry. HAHA! This week's continuation is equally heart-warming. Quoted below is this week's chapter though.
I practically do all these things just to pass my time.
Looking forward to the release of new manga chapters is just an excuse to look forward to the new week, better than having nothing to wait for.
But, last week's chapter was so tragic, it nearly made me cry. HAHA! This week's continuation is equally heart-warming. Quoted below is this week's chapter though.
海燕 : 朽木， 你今后在战斗时有一件事绝对不能做。。。 那就是绝不能当你只有一个人的时候死去。魂魄本身就是我们的身体， 如果死了身体也就消失了， 变成了尸魂界的灵子。 那时候你的心要去哪里呢?
心， 要把它交给夥伴才能走。 心交给了夥伴的话就会在他们之中永远活下去。 所以， 朽木， 绝对不要当你只有一个人的时候去死， 明白了吗。
Kaien: Do not die alone. Our bodies are spirits. When we die, we disintegrate, and become the reishi making up Soul Society. So then where do our hearts go?
Your heart stays with your friends. If it stays with your friends then your heart will continue to live on within them. That’s why, Kuchiki, you should
never die alone.
These are not my own translations. You guys probably dont know the story... But still, i quoted it. hee.. But the mention of leaving your heart with your friends and loved ones touched me. Speaking of dying alone actually scares alot of people. If you manage to pass your heart on to someone else, there's actually someone here who remembers you forever. =)
Hmm... Now that i'm done blogging, i got to think of how to settle my own dinner. Hasn't been feeling well lately(amazingly my dad understands even though he's a man), while mom just left me here alone at home(...TO DIE).
Though most of the time...i rather be alone at home since nobody's here to shut me up while i sing.
Friday, March 23, 2007
this post is actually dedicated to the gazelles who got eaten by those huge crocodiles in a documentary i've just seen.
hahah! no la! just kidding.
actually i was watching a particular documentary 2 nights ago, showing how a group of big crocodiles actually go about living (and preying) in a swarm.
Most of them prey on gazelles and gazelles are their main source of food. Well, gazelles are small orange antelopes, or 羚羊 in chinese (but gazelle is a name refering only to the smaller ones).
(sorry, it's going to be a rather long post.)
What happen then was that, a group of gazelles were feeding on grass patches on a field near a swarm. The saying "the grass is always greener on the other side" fits exactly into the situation the gazelles are in now. They wanted to cross over to the other side of the swarm as they felt there're more grass there that tasted better. And that swarm there doesnt seem very deep. And so the gazelles decided to cross over to the other side, even though crocs are looming around in it.
The first gazelle got into the water and starts running and swimming as fast as it could, but was caught quickly by one of the bigger crocs and dragged down into the swarm. As you might think the gazelles will stop crossing and go back up to shore, right? Nope! The second, and third and fourth gazelles started running into the swarm and swam quickly, thinking that they might be able to swim pass the crocs, but more crocs started appearing and dragged each of them down into the water.
Now, you might think the other gazelles should have stopped and learn their lessons from those few that had jumped in before them. Well... wrong again. More and more gazelles started crossing the swarm. The crocs caught every single one of them and after drowning them, they started ripping the gazelles apart and swallowed them down. One of the gazelles's head which was ripped from its body was still moving in the crocs mouth as the croc tried to force it down it's throat.
Because one gazelle is not enough for a croc, by the time there were no more gazelles left, there were still two crocs that had not gotten a single piece of the gazelles! Imagine how many crocs were in there.
The two crocs being the smaller ones, left with no choice, had to leave the group.
What i can't understand was, why would the rest of the gazelles cross the swarm after seeing how their mates had not been able to survive in the presence of the crocs...
Why would they think that they can cross the swarm safely?
Did they think that the crocs will let them get away after eating just one of the gazelles?
Why did the animal world work like this?
hahah! no la! just kidding.
actually i was watching a particular documentary 2 nights ago, showing how a group of big crocodiles actually go about living (and preying) in a swarm.
Most of them prey on gazelles and gazelles are their main source of food. Well, gazelles are small orange antelopes, or 羚羊 in chinese (but gazelle is a name refering only to the smaller ones).
(sorry, it's going to be a rather long post.)
What happen then was that, a group of gazelles were feeding on grass patches on a field near a swarm. The saying "the grass is always greener on the other side" fits exactly into the situation the gazelles are in now. They wanted to cross over to the other side of the swarm as they felt there're more grass there that tasted better. And that swarm there doesnt seem very deep. And so the gazelles decided to cross over to the other side, even though crocs are looming around in it.
The first gazelle got into the water and starts running and swimming as fast as it could, but was caught quickly by one of the bigger crocs and dragged down into the swarm. As you might think the gazelles will stop crossing and go back up to shore, right? Nope! The second, and third and fourth gazelles started running into the swarm and swam quickly, thinking that they might be able to swim pass the crocs, but more crocs started appearing and dragged each of them down into the water.
Now, you might think the other gazelles should have stopped and learn their lessons from those few that had jumped in before them. Well... wrong again. More and more gazelles started crossing the swarm. The crocs caught every single one of them and after drowning them, they started ripping the gazelles apart and swallowed them down. One of the gazelles's head which was ripped from its body was still moving in the crocs mouth as the croc tried to force it down it's throat.
Because one gazelle is not enough for a croc, by the time there were no more gazelles left, there were still two crocs that had not gotten a single piece of the gazelles! Imagine how many crocs were in there.
The two crocs being the smaller ones, left with no choice, had to leave the group.
What i can't understand was, why would the rest of the gazelles cross the swarm after seeing how their mates had not been able to survive in the presence of the crocs...
Why would they think that they can cross the swarm safely?
Did they think that the crocs will let them get away after eating just one of the gazelles?
Why did the animal world work like this?
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Heh! Went to check on my cca points today and i was surprised that i was being rewarded an extra 2 points for being in the tennis club. Haha!
i actually went to check out the tennis club in year 1, and somehow that president of the tennis club (whose name i remembered is Sky), had taken down my name and listed me as one of their members. Hoho!
What i remember is he telling me to go back and see him if i've decided to join the club.
Had i known that i'm alrdy a member i would have went for practice! HAH!
Anyway, i actually stumbled upon my cca points while amending my resume. Felt the reason nobody is calling could be due to the fact that my resume wasnt really good enough..
HEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!
i actually went to check out the tennis club in year 1, and somehow that president of the tennis club (whose name i remembered is Sky), had taken down my name and listed me as one of their members. Hoho!
What i remember is he telling me to go back and see him if i've decided to join the club.
Had i known that i'm alrdy a member i would have went for practice! HAH!
Anyway, i actually stumbled upon my cca points while amending my resume. Felt the reason nobody is calling could be due to the fact that my resume wasnt really good enough..
HEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!
Saturday, March 17, 2007
An Old Lady's Whining
sometimes when i look back at my blog,
i realised i havent been writing about my life.
i havent been like...updating the events that happened, and all i wrote about was simply my thoughts and stuffs like that.
Gets boring huh...?
I doubt anybody's reading... HAH!
but even if i want to write something now, there is nothing.
Nothing for me to blog about.
Because i have NO LIFE!!!
i'm not doing enough, i missed all the great opportunities in secondary school and polytechnic
like going on camps, exchange programs, hiking, canoeing and stuffs like that
erm... nvm, let's not go there.
why am i even talking about this...
see! i'm talking nonsense now.
mus have been staying at home for too long.
i realised i havent been writing about my life.
i havent been like...updating the events that happened, and all i wrote about was simply my thoughts and stuffs like that.
Gets boring huh...?
I doubt anybody's reading... HAH!
but even if i want to write something now, there is nothing.
Nothing for me to blog about.
Because i have NO LIFE!!!
i'm not doing enough, i missed all the great opportunities in secondary school and polytechnic
like going on camps, exchange programs, hiking, canoeing and stuffs like that
erm... nvm, let's not go there.
why am i even talking about this...
see! i'm talking nonsense now.
mus have been staying at home for too long.
has been holidaying for 1 month and 2 days.
haha!
and i havent found a job yet!!
haiz. daddy told me to take my time,
but i've been tryin to really look...
it's so difficult la... =(
i'm... useless to the society at the moment.
haha!
and i havent found a job yet!!
haiz. daddy told me to take my time,
but i've been tryin to really look...
it's so difficult la... =(
i'm... useless to the society at the moment.
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Picnic at West Coast Park
Saturday evening. Did something we would never have done.
WE HAD A PICNIC.
Haha!! But it's great. We prepared our own food, travel in our own vehicle, lay our own mat, and play all we want.
Though most of the time we're taking pictures,
these guys sure loves having cameras around =)
Love this pic, sparklers and graffiti by kids, all innocent and childlike.
I THINK... the one in the middle is winking at me (or my camera). hah!
group pictures are never perfect... . :)
WE HAD A PICNIC.
Haha!! But it's great. We prepared our own food, travel in our own vehicle, lay our own mat, and play all we want.
Though most of the time we're taking pictures,
these guys sure loves having cameras around =)
Happy people. (Sings.. "Everybody stand up...")
this time, there're three '3210's (with necks).
Love this pic, sparklers and graffiti by kids, all innocent and childlike.
I THINK... the one in the middle is winking at me (or my camera). hah!
group pictures are never perfect... . :)
all ends well, though we might never have something like that in future.
in future... maybe, something better!
Friday, March 9, 2007
Be a Little Different.
What is it like doing something different from everyone else?Tuesday, March 6, 2007
sometimes,
i just feel like trash.
i just feel like trash.
Saturday, March 3, 2007
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